The Fabric Of Our Life

Oh how utterly important I am to the fabric of this family of mine.

So much so, that when I'm sick the whole family is affected. Funny how it took something like this to shine a spotlight on just how needed I am. And how I have a direct part to play in how the family functions, runs, performs.

I've had days where I was so fatigued and weak I could hardly walk from one room to the other without getting winded. I had one good day last week and I took advantage of it by taking my oldest out for donuts. I'm painfully aware of how important it is to cease a good day now.

Still receiving B12 shots and taking a Magnesium supplement, we got more blood work in that shows something suspicious. Because of the results, and the type of blood test, my doctor is sending me out to a rheumatologist for further testing.

In the meantime, I guard my words and my attitude. God created everything by speaking it into existence. Jesus healed people by speaking to their bodies. Words are powerful… they can be a positive force or a negative force. Even when I feel just terrible, I try and chase those thoughts out of my head before they enter my mouth.

Oh and see that little button right there on the side of this page? —->

The one that talks about following my running journey this year? Yeah, I'm keeping it there. It haunts me sometimes, thinking of how excited I was about that goal this year and how now I can hardly walk without becoming exhausted — but I am not giving up on that just yet.

Pushing my body since 2008, when I first began feeling sick, I know what it is capable of. And I know that someone will get to the bottom of things, or these shots will begin melting the pain and fatigue away, and I'll be back to who I was before all of this.

Until then, I'm taking it day by day and appreciating my husband even more than before.