Holding Tight
Today I awoke to a new day, a day filled with hope and promise. A day very unlike this day three years ago.
Today I packed up my precious cargo, drove down to pick up my other precious cargo, traveled to a park, and played in the rain.
My Mother and I chased the boys around the playground, slid down the slides with them, pushed them on the swings, laughed, smiled, and watched as the weather turned dark and gloomy.
Oh how the weather was so fitting for the day. Dark, rainy, gloomy, and at times scary. And yet even with the scariness of the darkness we found the light, and the fun, and the joy, and the love.
Three years ago today I was carrying my middle son in my belly as I walked into the hospital, checked into intensive care, was met by my step-dad, and saw her… laying there, on the bed, hooked to machine after machine…looking…well… dead, gone, not there.
Three years ago today my Mother tried to end her life. But God didn't let her. And it has been a rough ride for her, for us, for everyone who loves her, but we're all still here…holding on, tight, very tight.
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I am so glad that you were able to share this dark and rainy day with her, because even with the bad weather at least she was there to see it with you. I pray that she will continue to be well.
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what a beautiful tribute to your mom. may she be well and happy for many more years!!
xoxo
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Wishing all the best for your mom.
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I'm so glad you still have your mom and got to spend the day with her and your boys. I pray that you get to spend many more years with her!
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Nell,
You are a great daughter to walk with your mom through this dark day. God is good, and I am so glad you and your children were able to enjoy her today!
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Hugs to you!
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This is beautiful and gave me goosebumps.
Good thing God is in charge!
You are brave for sharing such intimate things, and I thank you.
You offer perspective and remind us of what REALLY matters in life.
Hugs to you, and many good thoughts for you, your mom & your family.
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The picture, the words are poetic telling such traumatic piece of your path but again I thank you for sharing because with each piece we can share of our healing, of the silver linings, the rays of hope in our trials we pass that ability to others to find it who may think it's not there!
Your wonderful! Hugs to you and your mom.
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*hugs* I'm so glad that your Mom is still hanging on and with you. And that you were able to spend a happy day on the anniversary of such an awful one.
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I won't say I understand because I don't I will say I love that you wrote this, I love how you are looking at it and I think you are an amazing person.
Wow what a meaningful day. I'm so glad that God had different plans for your mom and that she is here today. You're such a strong woman Nell. And an inspiration. Thanks for sharing this.
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